THE GRUMPY OLD MAN....... (and his teddy) :(

A busy chaotic street.
Traffic.. Screams.. people.., Noise.
A grumpy, helpless old man, barefoot..
walking across the street with a stuffed teddy in his hand.
For him there is nothing around. nothing at all.
Just a vast desert.. Lonely desert. &Scorching mid-day heat.. Heated sand, hot sandstorms
& all he knows is that he is walking through the sand.
Facing down. Disturbed, lost in his thoughts. Hopeless. defeated.
Screaming inside as loudly as he could, but from outside, he's just the silent grumpy oldman..
He keeps walking.. Too lost to care about anything.
& then that teddy in his hand drops down.
He stops. looks down at it for a moment.
& all he could see was a sad faced teddy lying in the heated sand with dirt all around. (The same teddy which was once happy cheerful & bright).
he stared at it for a little longer.
& then kicked it, he kicked his Teddy (his hopes..) with frustsation.
& then walked through his sand again.
Facing down. Disturbed, lost in his thoughts. Hopeless. defeated. Frustrated.
The same old grumpy man.... just a little more dead inside. :(
-vibhor.

may be i should. SHOULD I?

Watched aashiqui2. Yea yea I know.. The same old crap story with some pathetic acting performances. Hehe. Lets not talk about it. Lets talk about rahul jaykar aka RJ., the lead character of the movie. Its not often that I can relate to a character.. but Rj, he is equal to me. Me Minus the love or any girl problem. Its equal to me minus all his bad addictions. Yes, u must be thinking whats left in the character to talk about now. Well, watch the movie again( I know its too annoying to watch it again, but watch it for me). Watch it for the struggle he is having with himself. Watch it for the broken rahul. From the moment I started watching the movie I was so curious to come across some kind of answers or a path.. all through the movie I was waiting &Then the movie ended. & then I was like "f*ck! Suicide?" . I spent hours thinking a lot about it the whole night,& now it seems legit,justifiable, right. May be this is the only answer to all those questions.. :) and now all Im left with is "MAY BE I SHOULD.SHOULD I?"
But then hey! Im dexter morgan, how can I be soo weak! :) -vibhor!!