:( FUCKKKKKKKKKK!!!!

Sometimes, yes your life sucks,

when you have so much to say, so much to cry out, but you dont have someone to talk to.

U have so many people in your life but not a single person who is there for u.
Someone u need.
someone to share everything about you, to whom you can tell without any worries, that how defeated, damaged, ruined, devastated, scattered u r from inside.

Times wen u need some1 who listens to u patiently,willingly.
Someone who just doesn't give those typical fake reactions of care & concern.

Someone on whose shoulders u can cry & cry for hours just like u have cried alone in nights.

Someone in front of whom u dont have to pretend being happy.

Some1 who understands u& your flaws.

Some1 who just looks into your eyes & tells u that its just okay to b like the way u r,everything's gonna b alright.


-Vibhor

THAT FEELING...

The sound of a calm,cool breeze in a busy, noisy chaotic city full of various sounds......,
sometimes has a feeling.


The same feeling that the moon has, at night, while it is among all those lovely twinkling stars.


or the feeling, which a oildrop spilled in a vast ocean has.


THE FEELING OF LONELINESS,THE LONELINESS A PERSON FEELS WHILE STANDING IN A CROWD,THE CROWD OF PEOPLE ALL AROUND, THE FAMILY, THE FRIENDS.

THE STRANGE LONELINESS, NONE CAN DESCRIBE.

SKY.. is a canvas..

Sky is a canvas..

Man! I love the way 'HE' paints..

The way 'HE' uses the playful careless winds as brushes on the ever-gorgeous clouds,

the way 'HE' glorifies it all with the heavenly touch of beautiful light
& the little cute bird dancing on that ray of the sun,

OH! simply turns it into an unexplainable divine experience

SCATTERED!

I dont wanna be a photographer,

I dont wanna be a painter,

or a writer,

a grafitti,

or any damn thing..

I click, I sketch, I write,
not to become something..,
but just to calm the voices in my head,
just to satiate something which is there inside me, hidden from the world.

An entanglement of thoughts unshared.

An unending puzzle in me which needs to get solved.

And somewhere,

somehow

all this clicking, this writing, sketching etc., just keeps me normal,
keeps me sane.
like the pieces of those unsolved puzzles in my head.

Im just some scattered shards of glass trying to gather myself.

-vibhor

THE DIARY OF A RED ROSE : page- 1.

A lil dewdrop fall on my eyes from a leaf above me.


& I woke up to a lovely beautiful morning..


filled with the Birds chirping & smell of fresh air all around..


An innocent ray of sunlight tenderly opened my eyes to a beautiful world outside.
As I looked around, as always I saw that butterfly, a beautiful species with gorgeous green eyes & those amazingly attractive yellow coloured wings with a fluorescent blue outline.


I just love those round, red spots all over her wings.
She was sitting silently on one of my petals & was enjoying the morning. My heart skipped a beat when suddenly her oh-so-soft &silky wings brushed with my petals. Ahh & that sweet look she gave me then. We both melted into each other's eyes for a moment. She smiled at me & then flew away.


Seriously I just cant imagine any of my mornings to start without her lovely presence.


-VIBHOR.

YOU ARE THE ONE I MISS......

Hey!
I love the way u shyly hide behind the moon..

Then filled with naughtiness u peep thru those clouds..

when u r busy talking to the winds.. I love watching u..

as u play with these stars all around u.. My eyes are simply glued to u.
The way u blink with every twinkle of them.. & that ever cute smile u give while u passionately look into my eyes.
oh! My heart skips a beat.

But

Thats when I feel I m the most helpless.

Hey angel..
For a while at least come down to me.
Or take me away with u... to ur fairyworld forever.

All I wanna say is

'u r the one I miss'
hey I need u.
-VIBHOR

those memories ......those days

Watching those birds & then trying to fly.
Those ants & spiders with whom I used to play...
the whole day.
Those paperplanes of mine that used to fly high in the sky.
Those raindance & the paperboats.
The terrace at the top of my house which I wasnt allowed to
climb.
The street dogs I used to kiss while going to school.
Playing with the fire that used to be a crime.
The faces I used to find, in those clouds above the sky.
That stuffed teddy which used to Say "I love u" whenever I
used to cry. :)
I miss them all.
How i Wish those memories, those sweet childhood memories
could again come alive. :)
-VIBHOR.

BEING SINGLE . . .

Being single.

Haha.

Its such a painful crime sometimes. 

Everyone looks upon u like a worthless loser. 

Even I always took Being single as a big pain in the butt. I used to get soo desperate to get involved. :D 

The moment some girl get a little too friendly I used to dream day night about her.

 Atleast its not the same any more. After a few stupid love& heartbreaks. I kind of understood the beauty of being single.. :) 

Better stay single than wasting ur precious time & emotions on someone wrong.  ...

After watching a whole lotta commited ones out there.. it Really feels respectful being single. U get to know this beautiful life more & better, when u dont hav to waste time of ur life on wrong ones.

&Why regret being single?

I still find those sunsets beautiful.

I still love watching stars & the moon.

Still beaches, raindrops & romantic music/movies fascinate me.

&Moreover, single means,

i hav my own command on my money, my phone bills, my time, my academics.

Vaise lets be frank.. Thoda bhaav milne pe, I still get over-excited, I still wont mind getting committed. Lol.

But yea.. 

We should enjoy & respect being single. U realy gonna miss these days later. :) :) :)

-VIBHOR.

:(

& it feels so bad actually………………..
there were umpteen dreams i had for me … none came true..
& when i just look at my life.. :) it feels like the GOD was just kidding with me, with my life……….. and at the end of the day i m soo lonely… a loser :’(
the worst thing is when u have no one to blame...  because one way or the other its actually me responsible for ruining my life..
all i can say is...
i know a beautiful life is being wasted.  :’( …………..

A LOVE LETTER... ungiven, unreceived... :D

Dear,           

             Hey! I guess its high time to pour my heart out. It has been ages since I am trying to convey my feelings but I think perfect things require a perfect timing. Don’t know why but I think today is the day.

              Ever since I met you I am simply lost in you. The way you smile, the way you laugh, the way you speak.. everything seems heavenly. Even the way you blink your eyes while talking, ahhh!! It takes my breath away. I just love to watch you engrossed in your work when you are unaware of me watching you, because that’s when your  cute, innocent face just makes me skip a heart beat.your cute kitten eyes, the lovely smiling lips are enough to melt my heart. Whenever I talk to you, whenever you are there with me, it feels like nothing else matters. While watching you my eyes just don’t wanna blink.

               Earlier I took it just as an attraction but gradually you are becoming my most beautiful habit. I am unable to resist you any moment. I am sure now, without you my life will be incomplete, just like a colourless, odourless rose. Please! Please be my life and pour fragnance and colours in my existence. Be a reason to my life.

                    I don’t know what you feel. I don’t know what you will be thinking. Well no matter you love me or not,  you like me or not. My heart will always beat because of  you. I’ll always be waiting for you.

                                         I LOVE YOU!

                                                                                                               -VIBHOR <3

A NEW BEGINNING

this blog is coming into existence not just for fun…. its just that some feelings of my heart are & will always b untold… untold to the real world… i really dont know why.  i seriously hope that blogger in that case will prove to b a true companion. :) a companion who will b there in every step of my life.. :) its a new step forward, a new beginning all the way... :)