THE GRUMPY OLD MAN....... (and his teddy) :(

A busy chaotic street.
Traffic.. Screams.. people.., Noise.
A grumpy, helpless old man, barefoot..
walking across the street with a stuffed teddy in his hand.
For him there is nothing around. nothing at all.
Just a vast desert.. Lonely desert. &Scorching mid-day heat.. Heated sand, hot sandstorms
& all he knows is that he is walking through the sand.
Facing down. Disturbed, lost in his thoughts. Hopeless. defeated.
Screaming inside as loudly as he could, but from outside, he's just the silent grumpy oldman..
He keeps walking.. Too lost to care about anything.
& then that teddy in his hand drops down.
He stops. looks down at it for a moment.
& all he could see was a sad faced teddy lying in the heated sand with dirt all around. (The same teddy which was once happy cheerful & bright).
he stared at it for a little longer.
& then kicked it, he kicked his Teddy (his hopes..) with frustsation.
& then walked through his sand again.
Facing down. Disturbed, lost in his thoughts. Hopeless. defeated. Frustrated.
The same old grumpy man.... just a little more dead inside. :(
-vibhor.

may be i should. SHOULD I?

Watched aashiqui2. Yea yea I know.. The same old crap story with some pathetic acting performances. Hehe. Lets not talk about it. Lets talk about rahul jaykar aka RJ., the lead character of the movie. Its not often that I can relate to a character.. but Rj, he is equal to me. Me Minus the love or any girl problem. Its equal to me minus all his bad addictions. Yes, u must be thinking whats left in the character to talk about now. Well, watch the movie again( I know its too annoying to watch it again, but watch it for me). Watch it for the struggle he is having with himself. Watch it for the broken rahul. From the moment I started watching the movie I was so curious to come across some kind of answers or a path.. all through the movie I was waiting &Then the movie ended. & then I was like "f*ck! Suicide?" . I spent hours thinking a lot about it the whole night,& now it seems legit,justifiable, right. May be this is the only answer to all those questions.. :) and now all Im left with is "MAY BE I SHOULD.SHOULD I?"
But then hey! Im dexter morgan, how can I be soo weak! :) -vibhor!!

UNNOTICED! :)

THE THINGS UNNOTICED,
UNHYPED,
THINGS AWAY FROM THE LIMELIGHT..
ARE SOMETIMES THE MOST BEAUTIFUL..
And NOT BEING LIMELIGHTED IS THEIR LOVELIEST PART..
Just like
SOME WORDS..
UNSPOKEN.. :)
-vibhor!

BEST OF BOTH WORLDS

yes, there are 2 worlds.
One which we live in, THE WORLD OF REALITY.
The other we build around ourselves..
The world of dreams. fantasies. fairy tales.
&Yes, dreams include nightmares too, but still.
Reality is far more murky.
Reality is scarier.
And though reality is unpredictable,
its boring, damn boring.
Reality is messy. Emotions are messy,
feelings are messy.
yes,Humans are messy.

TRAPPED.. in the shadows..

TRAPPED!! trapped in shadows.. DARK SHADOWS.. .
shadows of the world around. shadows of himself.
SCARED. CLUELESS HELPLESS.
people told him shadows are nothing but a reflection.
people told him dont fear the dark,& wait for the light, coz light conquers everything.
but he, he just smiles, at those ppl, &their ignorance.
coz he doesnt fear the DARK. not at all.
HE FEARS THE LIGHT.
it’s the light.. light is the only reason for these scary shadows, not the darkness.
darkness never leads to shadows…. or fear..
-vibhor!

O LIFE!

Yes, we hav our own diffrences.

Yes, sometimes, we both have misunderstandings.

And yes, sometimes we fight a lot.
But still, O LIFE!..
you know I love you.. And love you soo much, for my own weird reasons.

Cheers to U, O LIFE!

-vibhor.

:( FUCKKKKKKKKKK!!!!

Sometimes, yes your life sucks,

when you have so much to say, so much to cry out, but you dont have someone to talk to.

U have so many people in your life but not a single person who is there for u.
Someone u need.
someone to share everything about you, to whom you can tell without any worries, that how defeated, damaged, ruined, devastated, scattered u r from inside.

Times wen u need some1 who listens to u patiently,willingly.
Someone who just doesn't give those typical fake reactions of care & concern.

Someone on whose shoulders u can cry & cry for hours just like u have cried alone in nights.

Someone in front of whom u dont have to pretend being happy.

Some1 who understands u& your flaws.

Some1 who just looks into your eyes & tells u that its just okay to b like the way u r,everything's gonna b alright.


-Vibhor